After a sleepless nite for both of us, we tried consoling each other.
I felt good enough to laugh it through. I am not dying just like this. But I do have to start planning on how to 'transfer' whatever asset I have to a trusted person, so that the process will not be so tedious thereafter. I did not write a will because I do not have much asset really, to pass down.
We were at the clinic early, hoping to get a car park lot without too much waiting. But it took us 2.5hrs wait at the clinic, because Joy Lee said, we have to be the last patient as we will be having a LONG talk. Isn't it obvious what result it will be? That 2.5hrs was forever. But my hubby was with me, and forever isn't an issue.
When we finally saw her, it was 2.30pm and we were all very hungry. Nonetheless, we talked and talked and talked. I asked so many questions and she showed me pictures after pictures, textbooks after textbooks and charts after charts. The decision was upon me now to decide what and when I want to go for the surgery. The rest like radiation and chemo will follow after the op.
Nonetheless, I wanted to go through the series of tests like chest x-ray, mammogram, ECG etc. that I felt would help the doctors and surgeons to do a better job on me. The wait wasn't long, but the price did made my eyes shone. This is the first time I am doing a mammogram. The Philipino was fluent in English but wasn't really gentle. She is swift to 'squash' my B between the machine and left them swollen. Now I know why so many procrastinate over a mammogram. I may too...
After we left the hospital, the truth slowly sunk in. It was difficult as we are human but we have to go through it. I believe God put me in this trial for a reason and I am determined to pull through it. I know HE doesn't want to see me in person too soon as I can be real irritating at times, with my constant chanting. We went for a bite as my hubby must be real hungry by then. He seldom have to delay his lunch. he must have lost some weight... temporarily.
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